This is pretty much my life right now. And right now I wouldn't have it any other way. Human connection, physical closeness to another person 24/7, being grabbed by tiny fingers (like right now!) preventing me from typing with two hands (which I can still do!). Like last night, after breast feeding my 4 month old son to sleep having my 3 year old son fall asleep in my arms, figuratively, on my legs, literally. Add to that the physical closeness of an oversized golden retriever 'puppy' or what do they call up-to-no-good 25 kg balls of fur? Sometimes there's just so much drool from all of the above and so much shared tropical sweating that moments of aloneness seem like quite a luxury... by definition rare and valued. Another luxury which I can't afford, or even if I could I wouldn't want to, is being apart from these tiny beings of joy. As my often-much-better half booked a diving trip to a neighboring 'paradise' with his also married and soon to-be-father friend, the thought came to me... how and when would I treat myself to something luxurious? What is it that I want? What do I dream about, or what could I start to dream about? (The why we need a bit of luxury is I think a no-brainer... fixing this state of sleep deprivation is one key answer.)
Well, I'm still thinking about what I would like since it has to be achievable and realistic. I would love to go visit my family and friends back at home sooner than the 12 months it looks like it's going to be. I would love to visit Berlin with my sons but it's a bit too far and expensive to manage from where we now are. So I don't know... I'm still working on this one. Ideas? In the meantime, though, I can connect with the same people through this blog maybe. Escaping to the adult intellectual world and having a bit of a blogging breather seem like a luxury I can afford. So I start here ;)
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